your skin

i have the best parents in the world, best boyfriend anyone could ever hope for, crazy but yet adorable good friends to go to to laugh and cry with, a good institution for me to study, a seemingly good path for the future, a great life with no major setbacks, if everything's been planned by the greater person up there, then i have been very very lucky. i am thankful but somehow i dont know how to be. and if there's anything to work on myself, its to be grateful. each and every single minute.



nowadays i find solace in the simplest thing in life. like listening to love songs every morning before school. or even just laughing. recently i have this realisation that i love touching his face a lot a lot. and his arms too. rough from eczema and allergy, but i m used to that texture that if i were to touch any other skin, it ll feel so different!

and also, i dont know but the parental unit has been very erm, different. maybe the sudden realisation that i am gonna be 21 this year, probably leaving KL this june, and that my dentistry studies is gonna end just as quick as how the year 2008 and 2009 passed by. it is actually really fast. time, irreversible. but i ll never chose to have it reversible. every now and then, never fail to tell chin nam that we only have 3 more months here in KL. and how the future is so unknown. but, yeah, for now i rely on his strength and faith in us. need some time for me to really stay strong also.

yesterday was teasing him with all the things he'll missed when i m gone. but truthfully, its all the things I AM gonna miss without him. if i could have one wish right now, its for strength for both of us to face all possibilities thrown in our way. and for myself to not always worry so much. paranoia is no good sometimes!